Me and my super-subtle new running shoes just went for my fastest two-mile run yet.

It was 70 today and I went for a run tonight for the first time in forever and it felt so nice and I just made a grilled cheese and avocado sandwich for dinner and now I’m drinking a beer and everything about today was just very good.

Hi. 

• The Voice is still just the greatest show and I can’t believe how emotionally invested I get. I still have not been able to reconcile my inappropriate Blake Shelton feelings, either.
• I haven’t eaten Chipotle in six weeks. I don’t know how that happened.
• But it probably contributed to the fact that I had to buy a smaller sized pair of jeans this weekend.
• Which also doesn’t make sense because of all the stress eating and binge drinking I’ve been doing.
• But I haven’t cried at my desk since Thursday! And I spent the last two hours of my work day today watching 30 Rock on Netflix. Productive employee.
• I also accidentally watched six episodes of New Girl this weekend and I found it downright delightful. Shut up.
• The Oscars are soon and I haven’t seen so many of the movies and I don’t care, I’m still excited. It’s my favorite thing! 
• Most importantly, in a few days, I’m going to be an aunt for the first time. Which is amazing!
• 

If someone has any ideas about how to get rid of a general sense of malaise, I would love to hear them.

I’m sure winter has a lot to do with, but lately my only feelings are sad or cranky.

Boo.

This entire weekend was a “Treat Yo Self” Weekend 

I may have gone overboard, but only because I spent the majority of the week mired in panic attacks and crying spurts.

• Jäger bombs at work on Friday with my boss
• Many beers that same night
• The best sushi I have probably ever had in my life
• Grape martinis
• Cupcakes 
• Strawberry waffles
• This jacket (the picture does not do the color any justice at all. It’s obnoxiously bright)
• 
• And thanks to a nice tax refund because of all the tuition I paid at the beginning of last year, I bought an iPad that is going to take the place of my dying laptop. I got a green cover and named it Kermit the iPad because I’m an adult.

Musings 

• I should probably finish season one of Game of Thrones, huh? I loved the episodes I’ve seen, but I stopped watching and started reading the book instead, I have no idea why. But the book is amazing too but I don’t read enough anymore since I’ve been out of school.
• Speaking of school, I started to look into master’s programs to be a librarian. Even though those jobs will probably still be as hard to find as regular teaching jobs right now. I would love to be a youth services coordinator at a public library. Or a media specialist at a school library.
• I’d like somebody to teach me how to properly mix a drink. Because my drinks tonight were an uneven mix of vodka and soda. I need less vodka.
• At dinner on Friday, my friend Pat jokingly suggested we go see War Horse. I shouted “Fuck War Horse!” really loud because I was margarita drunk. People turned around and stared because I was so loud.
• I don’t wanna go to work tomorrow.
• 

I want to find the people at Target who created this simple-looking storage cube thing and I want to pee on everything they love.

It took two hours to put together and the pieces didn’t match the directions and pieces didn’t fit right and it was a nightmare. It’s not me, because, despite my clumsiness, I am actually kind of handy.

Favorite Movies of 2011 

This is the bandwagon I love to jump on. Right now I’m at about 11 or 12. I’m sure along the way I have forgotten one or two. Also, I still have not seen a lot of movies this year; the most notable exceptions for me are The Artist and Hugo. I’m just guessing that if I had seen these films, they would be on my list.

Movies you won’t see on my list: The Hangover 2, The Roommate, Crazy Stupid Love (I wanted to like you so much!), Rise of the Planet of the Apes, The Green Lantern. I saw a lot of terrible movies this year!

The one thing all of the movies on my list have in common is they all made me feel something, whether it was joy, sadness or excitement. For me, feeling feelings is always important in movies. Give me The Descendants which made me feel both sorrow and hope over The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo, which just left me cold and uncomfortable.

Nobody’s still reading this, but these aren’t in any order because I can’t choose. Except for number one. OK.

Eh, why not? 

1. I was almost named Sabrina. I often wonder what my life would have been like if I was named Sabrina. (In my head, I would have had a different life with a different name).
2. When I was about five or six, my brother packed a bunch of my clothes in a suitcase, put me out on the front porch and told me that my real parents were coming to pick me up.
3. When I get angry or am faced with confrontation, I cry. I can’t help it and I HATE it. It’s an involuntary reaction and it’s the worst.
4. I hate winter. I would rather be hot than cold.
5. Baby corn weirds me out. Seriously. It’s weird. It’s not right.
6. I fall in love with things quickly and completely and wholeheartedly. This includes books, movies, television shows, animals and people. And I will try with all my might to get all of my friends and family to love those same things. It usually doesn’t work.
7. I dislike talking on the phone. A lot. More than is probably normal.
8. I should have WebMD blocked from my computer. I look up EVERY little symptom and soon a simple sniffle has turned into a weird, exotic virus.
9. Ever since I saw Dead and Breakfast, I have wanted to write a zombie musical screenplay. Seriously. Yes, I know, zombies don’t talk, but I still want them to sing.
10. I like Hamm.